Alyssa's ramblings...

Encounters of the strange kind.

I was at Gloria Jeans, waiting patiently for my order, when my boss walked in. There was no overwhelming sense of dread {quite honestly, I thought there would be}, and no awkwardness. I simply felt… amused. Like “Oooh, this is funny, I wonder how this situation will play out!” So after he ordered, he walked up to the waiting area, and said hello. He seemed happy to see me there… because he’s a huge coffee drinker, and I assume he was happy that I’ve jumped in the boat too. Always looking for new recruits, those coffee addicts. He said {smilingly}, “Starting your day the sensible way, I see!” {{Yeah, why don't I go eat some hay. I can make things out of clay, or lay by the bay, I just may. Whaddya say?}} I laughed. {Come on, you have to humour the boss!} Then we talked about my husband’s car, and the alternator being set on fire because the oil cap was left off, and oil spilt all over the place. {Good times} Then my coffee came, and I left. He’s a really nice fella, my boss. Sometimes I think he looks at me like a daughter. He is protective of me, but reprimands me; he’s friendly and kind to me, but also wants to be respected.

Okay, I’m getting a bit nervous about singing my solo tomorrow. Eeeek. But you know what? It will be alright. Everything will go awesomely, and Daniel (the singing teacher) will have only a minimal amount of criticism for me, and will say it in such a way that will make me feel like I’m wonderful, but just need a bit of tweaking to become even more wonderful. Yes, he will be a fantastic instructor, full of constructiveness. Yes, he will. Please God, make him like me! And, more importantly, make Keren like me!

I’ve just recently realised how much I look up to Keren {who is, by the way, in charge of one of our music teams at church, and basically every church event that involves music}. I really, really crave her approval and acceptance as a singer, and honour her opinion above all others. I guess that’s part of the reason that this is such an important step for me… but it’s also to gain confidence, and become a better singer by working on anything I may be doing wrong.

I’m surprisingly chipper today. I really thought today would be a blur, after I stayed up until 1:30 this morning working on a sign my husband is putting together for Fusion (combined Youth Groups event tomorrow night). He’s doing an awesome job, and it’s looking fantastic, but sometimes he asks me to help. And even though I’m very, extremely tired, I give in. Probably not the best idea in the world.

I have a very important decision to make today, and I have no idea what my answer’s going to be. I mean, it’s not life or death {not even close}, but it would give me more responsibility {my husband’s convinced that’s a good thing}, and I’m still deciding whether I want that. Hubby said that, since I’m a Youth leader, I should really be stoked about having the chance to actually lead something… but it’s not in my area of calling! But then I think, everything we do doesn’t have to be in our area of calling, does it? No, of course not. Otherwise all I’d be doing is singing, all day every day (until I have children, then I’d be singing and parenting), and doing nothing else. So it’s not a bad thing to be serving in the house of God in something other than your area of calling, at least until an opportunity arises in your area of calling. Agreed? Yes. So, God? What do You think? Should I do it?

posted by Alyssa @ 1:28 PM